Puffy stickers and Incandescent words.

Hello.
Today is not about lighting up as much as it's about emotions.
Going to Ipoly you're forced to confront a lot of emotions, some of them very negative and uncomfortable.
Sometimes these emotions can get out of control. That's when the feeling starts. It rises through your gut and into your abdomen and you look like you're going to be see sick but your body is shriveling like it's in a drought.
that feeling is the complete opposite of how life is supposed to feel like.
And I know those feelings and they suck the life out of you.
If you're feeling that it will get better, I don't know how long it will take but it will.
I love you so so much. I only ever want you to feel that sunshine in your veins.
So if your parents suck like mine do: remember it's all going to be over soon, 18 and then freedom.
If your teachers suck: They have sad lives. They are sad people. If you feel uncomfortable or upset, go to your schools office and let them know.
If your friends make you feel like you shouldn't be alive: Dump them. They don't deserve you and you will find people who will.
Everything heals with time, even the deepest of wounds.
I love you so much,
-xoHunter

Sunshine In Your Veins.

There are somethings you just can't explain,
Like the way your heart breaks when you can't spend all your time in your favorite teachers class. Or when you light up when someone thinks of you enough to share themselves. When a friend gives you a muffin or a cookie. When someone you care about deeply, hurts you.
Some of these things make ice run in your veins, so cold that it stops your heart. Tears crystallize and you let yourself become frozen by the bad times.
But those good times. Better then any drug, better then anything. The way it makes sunshine bloom in your veins, snaking its way into your eyes. Making you glow from the inside out. Pure adoration to the world for bringing that person, or that event, into your life.
Like a song, that completely describes how happiness looks, and someone who smells like dreams. All intangible thoughts made possible by your existence.
The world loves you, undoubtedly and wholeheartedly. There is no question in my mind when the wind caresses your face, or the way the birds sing a melody inspired by you. You are the east the sunflowers turn to.
My mind is a garden filled with beautiful flowers I've been lucky to call my friends. I could never imagine in a world not being loved by them, or being hurt by them.
All this has to do with school, there has been stuff going on with the office and stuff, really meaningless stuff that I've let bother me. It has prevented me from thinking of the positive out comes. Even though I might be unhappy momentarily there will always be another good memory that rises with the sun.
I'm so happy I've gotten to meet you. Even briefly between my narrative and your readership. Thank you for being here and experiencing this with me.
I'm so impossibly happy with the state of my life. The people I have the privilege to know, and the people who want to teach me things.
Here's a happy song for you Trampoline by The Unlikely Candidates
-xoHunter

Picking Up.

So I know I said we were going to finish the summer narrative and do a three day recap. As it stands now, I have no desire to do either. Instead I'm just going to pick us up at today. I'll come home and write about it.

Things will eventually pan out, you will get to hear the story of Pre-Week and finish the summer. But I need to focus on the here and now and not dwell on the past.

Hope you understand.
-xoHunter

Of Changes and Update Schedules.

Hello everyone!
So I've updated the blog theme and I've changed the name! The reasoning behind this is; I've started my junior year of high school. I always like to make a weekly/daily/when-I-have-time update of how school is and how I am. So instead of creating an entirely new blog, I've decided that I'm going to just combine the two blogs. This doesn't mean an end to the summer narrative. In fact I already have a list of things I need to talk about (which I'm including in this.) You're not losing any content, you're gaining. I will say that summer updates will take longer to do, my plan is to stock pile them and put them out during the next few weeks. But who knows what's going to happen. I do promise you'll get to hear the end of it though.

But school is a huge part of my life, and a really interesting one to be completely honest.

So I'm going to write (hopefully) the next three summer stories and last three days of school this weekend. So I have a stock pile of summer and you'll be all caught up for next week.
Tonight though I'm going to bed at nine. Because Ipoly eats you up. If you want to know a little bit about Ipoly check here and here. I'm most likely going to be referring to Ipoly like everyone knows what I'm talking about, so if you're new that blog could be your crash course.

Instead of giving you a song recommendation I'm going to link you to a playlist I've been digging.
Here On 8tracks, Mix Maker: Sarkata
It's kept me pumped the last couple of days.
-xoHunter

Walking Into a Candle Shop.

Hey there!
Today I'm going to tell you the story of how walking into a candle shop might have changed my life forever....

It was 5 o'clock on a Thursday when Bobbi and I rolled into Solvang. We had just finished a week in Pismo Beach with my grandparents and now we were on the second leg of our trip. Four days in the King James Inn, located in the small Danish impostor town of Solvang. The street rolls up in Solvang at five, so satisfying our adventurous spirits was going to be a challenge. I was on a hunt for the Rainbow Tea shop (which I later learned had closed down months before.) My search was looking like a lost cause, so Bobbi suggested we check out some other stores. We found a candle shop that sold little touristy items at extremely low prices. As we were looking around, laughing and being generally exhausted from the drive, a girl with green hair walked into the shop. She looked like she was nineteen and having a bad day. So I called out to her,
"Hey, sorry this may be totally weird, but I really like your hair."
I forget her intimidate response, but somehow we started having a conversation. She said her name was Ari. I took it upon myself to introduce Bobbi and I,
"I'm Hunter, and this is Bobbi. We're girls with boys names."
"Really, like those are your actual names?" Her response was intimidate.
"Yep."
And that's how we continued. Ari and Bobbi had similar taste in music, I had no clue what they were talking about so I busied myself with things in the shop. We stuck around aimlessly wondering and Ari said,
"Yeah this is my first day working here."
My thoughts were, 'Wow, how lucky are we?' I'm not sure if I said it or not, but knowing me I probably did.
Somehow she roped us into buying some cool stickers. And she eventually asked us to hang out after she closed up shop. We exchanged numbers (I fucked mine up by accident.) And that was it.
Until she texted us the next morning.

I was thinking about this today because Ari is now someone I would consider a really good friend. I only knew her for four days, but she's made such an impression on me. I love the fact that I have her for a friend now all because I walked into a candle shop and told a girl that I liked her green hair.

If you want to hear more stories from Solvang, stay tuned because the next installment is coming soon.
Ari showed me some songs today so go check out Big Jet Plane by Angus and Julia Stone
Check you next time,
-xoHunter

Summer (An Introductions)

Hey there new person in my life,
So this is my summer blog. A little back story, I'm Hunter. I'm a Junior in high school, sixteen years old, female, living in Southern California. I spend a majority of my time doing something on my laptop, this ranges from blogging to writing to watching netflix. I'm pretty social in the right situations, but I'd prefer to stay with my close friend group and do fun stuff with them. This summer I reformed my view on myself. I took a good look at what made me tick and I kept the stuff I liked (like a hopeful and loving tone and weird facial expressions) and dropped the stuff I didn't (Negative attitude and an aptitude for self destruction.) That kicked off the strange summer of 2014.
I then got really close to a friend of mine named Bobbi. She's an absolute crazy person and I mean that in the best way. She cares and is so knowledgeable about the spiritual world, she was my real life spirit guide. She taught me about the stars and the worlds effect on me and the ways I affect the world. With this new found view of myself I invited Bobbi on an adventure with me.
(SIDE: The reason Bobbi was one of the best choices for an adventure was earlier this year we did a drama festival called Fullerton Festival. I thought this was my last Fullerton, which I will get into on another day, so I was on a mission to get my first kiss. And to ensure I did and to help me find *Him* I brought Bobbi along with me. We we're friends at this point and had several encounters but we weren't half as close as we are now. Long story short, I kissed three people, Bobbi was hit on, and we danced together and met Jesus.)
This was possibly the best choice I've made in my life so far. I did things that I would have never done if I was on my own or with anyone else. She propelled me to try things and to not be so scared. She also taught me a lot about myself. We had some really awesome talks and really cool adventures. And of course along the way we met some really cool people.
There will be a whole post about them soon I hope.
Then we came home, and I was happy and that was not an entirely normal feeling for me (I'm excited to say it's pretty normal now.) And Bobbi invited me to a concert. I'd already seen the band playing but who could say no to another adventure. When we went we met people and had an amazing time. Seriously it was a party in a peanut shell.
And then we parted ways once again. Only to call each other almost everyday and send various correspondences through facebook. On one such evening we decided we wanted to change the world. (There will be a blog post about that too.)
And now summer is ending. I need to finish my Romeo and Juliet summer homework, get school supplies and continue to revamp my style. This summer has been a trip and a half. I'm so happy that it happened, this is my last real summer before I start looking at schools and internships and trying to figure out how I want the next five years to go (I have some idea but....) This summer has changed me for the better and I'm so happy that I get to share it with you.
Okay, that's it for tonight, check back later this week to hear more stories about my summer and be inspired to.... I don't really know, maybe to take life into your own hands.
This blog is a continuation of my old blog Sophomore Slump or Comeback of the Year. And to keep with the spirit of that blog here's a link to a playlist I made that helps tell the story of this summer.
Love you,
-xoHunter